Sunday, April 28, 2013

38 weeks and a mini mental breakdown

Well 10 days to be exact, or I guess whenever little "cookie" is ready to come and meet the world!

I know understand when women say they are done. For the most part I think I had a fairly easy pregnancy. I did get morning sickness, when I actually figured it out it only lasted about a month. I didn't feel great through out that first half but once I got to the ultrasound through the eight month I felt great. I loved working out, yoga, Zumba, I was lifting weights getting ready to pick up baby. 

Then the third trimester hit. I remember laying on the couch and I turned to B and said I think I've hit a wall. I was getting such a sore back by the end of the day, I had so much pressure in the lower part of my body. A good friend of mine had me try on a maternity belt during one of our shopping trips and it changed my world...well day actually. It helped a lot for about a week, I still wore it everyday only because when I didn't wear it I could hardly walk. This lasted for about a month. Just this last Friday was the first time I didn't wear it all day because the pressure and pain moved again and is now lower in my hips and legs, which I'm so thankful for. It hurts only to stand now and then once I'm up I'm movin' and groovin'. 

Now that my appointments are weekly I have them every Friday afternoon. The first one I was a little effaced, my Dr. guessed about 30%. Last Friday she said about 50%. This last week I was noticing a big change in the Braxton Hicks I was having, they were a little more regular, I was getting cramping and was sure something was happening. So when I had my appointment this Friday and no changes I was taken aback. I mean why would I be having all this cramping all week and nothing happening? I know that it doesn't mean anything and "cookie" is going to come when she is good and ready but in my mind I was hoping something would start a little early so when I go into labor it would hopefully be a little smoother. 

Who doesn't wish this right? 

I decided a long time ago not to make a full "birth plan" and B and I have just been talking about when I do go into labor where we will meet and what we will do but I didn't want to have a full plan because I know that it will never go as I hope and I need to mentally be OK with that. So even with this little information about no changes when I was "for sure" something was going on it got to me. It took a couple hours really to sink in but I was a little down Friday night about it. I know it sounds silly I mean I have a couple weeks and I'll probably have more than that to be honest but I need to get this out to get through these next weeks! So if anyone has any fun ideas I can do to keep me occupied (nothing strenuous please;) let me know!

Oh and my friend sent me this hilarious link  the other day and it made me laugh so I started following her blog. Please check out her post here , now I know what I get to look forward to!